Heartbreaker

“You’re a heartbreaker, aren’t you.”
It wasn’t a question; it was a statement.
How like you to believe the truth of your assumptions.
But I played along.
I let you tangle me in your feathery string of words
Round and round until I lost my breath
And blended into the blurred surroundings of your starry night VanGogh
Desperately searching for the edges and angles
Anchoring you to me and us
Knowing I’d shatter against the impenetrable wisp of your love
Leaving behind painfully beautiful fragments of life.
But I played along.
So yes, I’m a heartbreaker.
I’m a terrible breaker of hearts.

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“Heartbreaker” by Azul Serena

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I Sang

I sang today for the first time since you left.
It wasn’t the timid chirp of a hatchling,
Doe-eyed and scared.
It was a sonorous roar that made you tap your
Feet and shake your hair in abandon.
I danced, too.
I twirled and wiggled from head to toe,
Gleefully lost in the moment,
Certain that sparks flew like dazzled rainbows
Wherever my eyes looked and my heart felt.
I sang and danced because despite it all,
I am still alive.

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“I Sang” by Azul Serena

Confession

What would you have me do?  Tell you that I think you’re cute, funny, kind, and sweet?  That I find your intelligence incredibly attractive and your presence invigorates my desensitized senses?  

And for what?  So that your silence can continue to foment my inquietude?

No love.  I will not say those things, for you know them all too well.  

Rather, you will see me running through this world like the carefree wind blowing by your ear.  Do you hear that?  It’s the music of my soul, ecstatic in its knowledge of the vigor of my power.  A creative soul.

Take your time love.  Mull over what you need and what you want.  Peruse your thoughts.  Listen to the words you yearn to say and heed the silence that you hold so dear.

When you’re ready and your lips regain their usual smirk, I will know if the words coming from my lips are the words we need to hear.

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“Confession” by Azul Serena

Cosmic Collision

We were both comets
Fiery and raging with purpose
Searing our paths through the vast universe
Leaving a wake of wispy granules
Ready to join in the creation of greatness
Confident and unerring in our trajectory,
An empty vastness of potential unfound and untouched
Beckoned us forward and onward,
Until we crossed paths
And paused.
Nevermind that the manifold mysteries of the universe
Rushed past us as we lay suspended in time
Quietly learning our silence and melodies
Intently studying our wars and our peace
Slowly learning our purpose
As individuals in a world of infinite infinities,
As Titans in a world of our own
Born of a gentle collision of cosmic proportions
With fires more potent that the steady flame
Of our singular passions.

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“Cosmic Collision” by Azul Serena

Tell Me Where We Stand

I don’t know what you want from me or where we stand.
I think you like me and I think you care about me,
But there’s always a nagging whisper saying otherwise.
I know what I want:
I am asking for transparency.
If we like each other let’s be frank about our intentions.
You taught me that you prefer it when I am honest with you,
And in that manner, I am asking that you to be honest with me.
Know that I am prepared for failure.
If we don’t work out I will know how to heal.
I won’t resent you; I won’t resent us.
I will simply heal.
If you don’t want my affection, tell me; I will understand.
If you don’t want my friendship, tell me; I will understand.
Tell me anything just don’t leave me in the dark.
That’s all I ask:
Be honest and tell me where we stand.

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“Tell Me Where We Stand” by Azul Serena